I'm on the penultimate episode of the second season.
Goddamit, Walt.
An aside: I know that I routinely piss everyone off with my "This sucks because of [essay]." so here's an attempt to do a positive one.
I'm going to discuss major spoilers here, so please be aware of that. And by the time I read this tomorrow, I'll have finished season two and be up to date.
Right... the episode PHOENIX ends with Walt going over to Jesse's to try to save him from killing himself with drugs. He gets in through a door he broke the day before and sees Jesse in bed, spooned by his girlfriend Jane. Jane is a drug addict who got Jesse into heroine and the reason Walt gave Jesse his $500 grand despite wanting to keep it from him so he doesn't use the money to overdose. Walt pushes Jane onto her back to get to Jesse. After a few moments, with Walt trying to wake Jesse up and then sighing in frustration, Jane starts to vomit and choke on her own vomit. Walt immediately goes to help her and then... stops. And he watches her choke to death. He lets her die. She never regains consciousness. And Walt cries.
I can't stress enough just how brilliant this scene is. First of all, the event itself is just brilliant. It just plain works. But the context of the scene is so complex it's incredible.
People get the wrong impression of me sometimes. I'm not an artistic snob. I'm not someone who intellectualises art and poo-poos 'entertainment'. I hate academia. I don't want intellectual complexity. It's fine to have it; I really enjoyed INCEPTION, but intellectual complexity is boring. BREAKING BAD isn't intellectually complex. It is a very simple story.
But emotionally this show is unbelievably complex.
Walt is a mass of contradictory emotions and desires bashing against each other. He's honest, yet a calculating liar. He's meek and timid, yet he's stubbornly proud and won't accept any kind of charity. He's placid and loving, yet holds grudges for decades and capable of great hate. He's compassionate yet he enjoys making other people suffer. He's completely rational and self-righteous but is wracked with guilt and self-doubt. He's a school teacher yet he's a drug dealer. That's, what, six dimensions right off the top of my head, and there's more. Wonderfully complex.
And that scene... on the one hand, Walt letting Jane die is a bad thing. Yet on the other hand, we completely empathise with Walt. We go, "I wish there was some other way". We want to save Jesse, yet we don't want to kill this girl. One the one hand, Walt clearly wants Jane to die and probably, somewhere in him, even likes seeing her die. And you know what? I'm kinda glad she's dead. She was killing Jesse. I'm kinda happy. And yet, the guilt, the pain, the wishing she wasn't dead, that there could be another way out... that is mature, emotional complexity in dramatic storytelling, and BREAKING BAD is full of those scenes.
What an incredible show this is.