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i hate how architects feel that, in order to make architectural education real enough, they give students enough work to absolutely kill any social college experience. it's the same all over the world, and it has been so demanding and absurd since Louis XIV in France. i love the work, i love architecture, but i can't stand working until 4 am everyday. i have leaving my dorm at 10 to my classes at studio, and basically staying inside that building until 4 am. i hate how they joke about it, i hate how it is shown as a right of passage. architects need to be very skilled, but, for the money they make (most often comparable with teachers), they shouldn't have to go through hell. though i suppose it is a dream-type job. BUT I HATE HOW I WENT TO COLLEGE EXCITED ABOUT HAVING THE COLLEGE EXPERIENCE, DOING MY WORK BUT HAVING FUN, ONLY TO WORK 18 HOURS A DAY 5-6 DAYS A WEEK, TO GET ****ING B'S. I'm in a ******* honors college thats supposed to be crazy competitive, Ivy-league level, and I'm getting B's because architects expect you to be Le-Corbusi-****ing-er all the time.
I hate how every girl I fall for ends up having a quasi boyfriend, and that they like me, but they have their relationship which isn't even that real! ****ing ridiculous.
I hate how I'm a ****ing loner. Mostof my friends are juniors, so I live basically alone, and they are all tighter with eachother than they am with me. They're good friends, but the fact that I only hang out with like 7 people, and in architecture I have no real friends, only acquaintences, pisses me off.
I hate people telling me how I'm good looking. Maybe if it actually meant something, and girls were throwing themselves at me, I'd be flattered or someething. But now it just kind of seems like a sick joke.
All kind of petty... I guess... but there are times that i just feel so tired of everything. I mean, I've had the same cold for 3 weeks because I have gotten 2 8-hour days of sleep since being sick...